9 Mar

I always thought I was wimpy.

I thought I was on the side of peace,

and freedom of personal opportunity.

Even if it was wimpy,

Even if it was nerdy,

Even if it was stupid.


From an early age, living in the Canadian North,

where knives were the weapons of choice,

I was terrified by the concept of ‘stabbing’,

I never knew why,

but I felt it meant ‘instant death’.



I saw DRIVE and I felt re-programmed.

I felt a ‘knee-jerk’ reaction to reach out and stab someone.

I felt that living in L.A. was HELL on earth.


I felt that the ‘HERO’ had no chance.

He was caught in hell,

and that in that hostile environment,

there was zero

chance for survival.


And yet, it was all very sexy.


For me

Ryan Gosling played the ‘boy in from the valley.’

He met up with a little family,

He saw some hope,

but became caught in a sticky web,

of no return greed, usury, violence.

(I saw him as the blond kidnapper from Fargo.  Shoot first, don’t bother with any questions afterward.)


As in ‘No Country For Old Men’,

our hero was mysteriously locked with,

became controlled by the DEVIL.


I came away.


Not that far away,

just from my home computer

with rental abilities,

with a feeling of wondering.


Was it an L.A. Fantasy, or was it the trap lying waiting for anyone wishing to move there?


I wonder where Ryan bought those shoes and pants from the closing scenes,

and I wonder when he had time to shop for those perfect items?

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About Valerie LeBlanc

Originally from Halifax, Nova Scotia, pluri-­disciplinary artist and writer Valerie LeBlanc has worked in Canada, the United States, Europe, and Australia. Her creations travel between poetry, performance, visual and written theory. Valerie LeBlanc has been creating video poetry since the mid 1980’s, and is the creator of the MediaPackBoard (MPB), portable screening / performance device. In the fall of 2012, she published her play The Raft, through Basic Bruegel Editions.